Friday, October 29, 2004
The next moments seems to last for eternity... Nothing seems to be able to heal the wound... Nothing at all...
Never did he know that it will be the last time he will ever get to talk to her again... The pain will last in his heart forever... The agony of losing her...
Although he can still sees her everyday but for him to do so, he can only do that in the dark from afar...
Although he wants to keep her, he knows that even by keeping her by his side, all he would have is her body, not her heart and soul... And both parties will ended up hurt... Believing that letting her go was all he could do and pray that she will find a better one for herself and give her his blessing... Even though deep in his heart, he knows that he will never really let go...
Seeing her with another guy one day brought back the memories of her in his arms and of all the times they spent together... As he saw the back of hers with the other guy grew smaller and smaller, his heart aches as he realised that he is no longer the one whom she will run into his arms for comfort when she felt sad and needed, the one to be there to dry her tears and make her world whole again, the one that she confides her fears and everything in, the one to hug her and assuring her that everything's gonna be okie, the one to light up her world with just a smile, the one who is able to say those three special words to her and watch her filled with joy....
to be continued...
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*~ Peace and hope... ~*
~world of my own~
20:00; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, October 24, 2004
for some reasons... feeling depress... upset wud be a better word... watever... not tt my existence is impt... wondering why am i here...
*~ People are such complicated creatures... Longing for simplicity... ~*
~world of my own~
01:30; unforgotten.Y
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
A new begining... A new chapter begun...
The day begun with a whole new morning... went to school today... flu-less... hahaz... lolx... better la... thanks for your concern... muack... i juz cant help but love you guys... hahaz... okie...
highlights of the day...
went to NEWater plant... wow... so fun... (p.s: i'd be lying by omission if i ever said tt...) i hate to admit this but it was way fun... wanna make another trip there... (ya ritez... over my dead body tt's it...) planning to PURPOSELY PUSH ailian into the water and see her swim... Jennifer added in another person to push in... jun ling.. heeheez... aren't we a couple of sweet angels... (upon arrival there... i found out tt the water was too shallow le... no fun... spoil my day... bleahz...)..
shared a bubblegum with ji chen... heeheez... the rest of the trip arz... nth much lorx... was half asleep when the guide was going on and on... and there's this guide, a lady, who kept saying "Fantastic"... ya... as if we dunno tt... watever...
back to sch... do wat... nth... crapping away... watever... *rolled eyes*...
after sch... was told by mrs looi tt today got cca... literally rushed here and there to get the keys, finding teachers... found the other teacher-in-charge outside the dance studio trying to open the studio door with the cupboard keys... kaoz... lidat oso can... den go down with her to the staff room while she go and get the studio keys... told her tt the instructor would be taking the studio keys le... dun believe me... in the end, she called mrs looi as she cannot find the studio keys... after tt, she came out without the cupboard keys and told me tt the instructor would get the studio keys... den she went in again after i remind her tt the cupboard keys are inside the staff room...
back in the dance studio enjoying the air-con... the instructor cancelled the practice because there was only three students including me... she was fuming mad... the rest of them had been informed of the practice... tmr sure to get it from mrs looi...
hopeless... lost... confused... upset... poignant... worried...
watever... i dun wanna think anymore...
*~ All men and women are born, live, suffer and die; what distinguishes us one from another is our dreams, whether they be dreams about worldly or unworldly things, and what we do to make them come about... We do not choose to be born... We do not choose our parents... We do not choose our historical epoch, the country of our birth, or the immediate circumstances of our upbringing... We do not, most of us, choose to die; nor do we choose the time and conditions of our death... But within this realm of choicelessness, we do choose how we live... ~*
~world of my own~
16:38; unforgotten.Y
Monday, October 18, 2004
sick... moody... depress... bored...
sore throat... slight fever... couhging... flu...
cousins... headache... nose stuffed... throat hurts... everywhere hurts...
I DO HATE TO BE SICK....
WHY ME......???
WHY NOW.....???
haiz...
wat went wrong... wondering...
smth's troubling... smth's stirring... smth's awakening... and tt smth hurts...
I know you... I walked with you once upon a dream... I know you... That gleam in your eyes seems so familiar to me... And I know its true... That visions are seldom what they seem... But if I know you... I know what you'll do... You'll love me at once... The way you did once... Upon a dream...
*~ If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.... ~*
~world of my own~
21:10; unforgotten.Y
Saturday, October 16, 2004
back le... exams over...
miss me...? anyone...? hahaz...
>> currently worrying abt the results... <<
out with ji chen, lin fang and cat ytd... helping jc to choose and buy some clothes... shant go into details... tt guy will make me vomit blood... hahaz...
lolx.... >> i'm dreading the wedding lunch on sunday...<< there's gonna be phototaking... omg.... hahaz...
>> seniors... good luck for ur major exams... << >>>> dun worry... i'll be there... kkz... juz gimme a call or msg if u need anything... dun keep everything to urself... it's bad to bottle everything up... it's okie to cry... we're all human beings... it makes no difference whether u r a guy or a gal... we do have emotions... whether it's rain or shine, know tt no matter wat, i'll always be there... if u need someone, u know where to find me... apologizing for not going up to the usual place for the past few months... hahaz... will be going there during hols... dun bully me horx... miss everybody there... hahaz... cheer up kkz... <<<<
*~ Pride is colourless, odorless... and yet it's the hardest thing to swallow... ~*
~world of my own~
15:05; unforgotten.Y