Sunday, January 28, 2007
saw him while i went to meet benjamin...
mayb i'm just born transparent... and sl's right... why should i care so much when you didnt even bother... i'm so fucking stupid... why must i always be the one taking the initiative... where were you when i need you... cant even remember such little things...
haha
i guessed the only time you'll talk to me is when you need favours...
tt's so true...
but
no more...
how can everything end and be over when it wasnt even started in the first place...
no more
mayb when we wake up tmr, we'll all realise that it's all but a dream...
a place of surrealism
a place of memories
*
sick... and i hate it... no thanks to projects and stuffs... terrible headache, throat hurts, and everywhere hurts... feels so tired... cant even switch on the fan because i feel so fucking cold... what's wrong wth my body...
suddenly, i feel like leaning on somebody...
but
=)
i'll still be standing...
oks...
must chiong project...
jiayou!!!
why must you make me fall when you're nt there to catch my fall...~World of my own~
01:00; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, January 18, 2007
I hate PSP... my programme cannot work...
DAMNwho actually invented computer language... no kudos to the person who founded computer language (although we do have to thank that person else there'll be
no such thing as internet and stuffs now)
no matter what i do, the stupid programme wont listen to me... freak larhs... and i have to hand this damn thing in by the end of the lesson... omg... how am i gonna survive through PSP... stupid larhs... delaration : I HATE PSP... *sobz*... oks... i know i'm a computer illiterate... as in the language... and yet people who took programming says that programming is easy... what the hell... easy meh..? i dont think so... it's not like i dont have enough problems communicating with half retards and idiots... and now i have to fins a way to communicate to the computer...? what the heck... *screams* can someone please speak something of intelligence and not languages of *ahems*... wells... in short, bird languages...
and all that the teacher can do is to tell us to do our naming properly... wah lau... i oso know that lor... where's the computer geniues when i need them...
calling for
Jimmy and
Jameson please... PH's having a
huge messed up problem right here...
where are they when i need them...why am i feeling so tired... my
alarms failed to wake me up (notice the "s" behind the alarm)...this is getting from bad to worse... late for lessons for this week... i gotta learn how to wake up... and yes, i was late for school today... yet again... *sighs* i have to gt benjamin to give me wake up call... =)
~World of my own~
11:12; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
had grouping on monday... went to meet joab and company at cinne... in the end they were playing cs while me and jianming watched Saw 3 on my laptop, waiting for gary...
benjamin called, asking where am i... told him my location and got to know that he wanted to watch movie... went for dinner first with them and after that waited for ben to join us... in the end, they went clubbing and me and ben went to wach kung fu majiong 3... the show was hilarious and the theater was freaking cold... the first thing he asked me when we stepped into the theater was whether i'm cold or not... thanks... and dont apologized because you weren't able to lower down the temperature...
reached home about midnight or so and msged ben to let him know i'm home... we talked about loads of things... things that makes me ponder...
thanks for your company when i'm feeling so blue... ya, and i wanna wach blood diamond as well... haha...
~World of my own~
22:14; unforgotten.Y
Monday, January 15, 2007
been so long... some of the pics I took in class because i'm so bored...
looks so yummy... but they're stones... my favourite colour... =)
my precious possession from benjamin, which never fails to cheer me up when i'm down...
the RING... haha...
I'm reduced to replacing my eyes with two $5000 tokens... hmmm, dont these two tokens look great on my face... LOLX...
the chocolate supplier...
dont they look nice to eat...
my two precious possessions...
do you know how much I miss you... I dont think you'll ever know... whenever i'm too tired to carry on, when i just feel like throwing in the towel, all i need is one msg from you and i'll be alright again...
but
nvm... i'll grow stronger...
even if you're not beside me, i'll still pull through...
been feeling blue for the past few days... i know you're tired and stressed out with what you're handling now and you do not have the time to reply me or whatsoever, but still a reply from you make my day...
sorry, i should have been more understanding, more caring... you're busy enough with your commitments - school, soccer, nti, family... and probably some other stuffs which i do not know...
suddenly i felt that no one ever care, not even you...
sorry...
but that was how i've been feeling those past days... maybe i'm tired, too many things on my mind...
head hurts a lot... feel like it's gonna break anytime soon...
i'll still be fine without you...
lying to myself seems so much easier...
~World of my own~
11:29; unforgotten.Y
Friday, January 12, 2007
你还记得一年前
我们初次约会的那天
你靠在我左手的肩
问为什么月亮这么圆
我说是庆祝我和你见面
你说我的嘴怎么这么甜
可是现在的你 不再像从前
是什么让我们疏远
我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远
感觉不到 你还在身边
我只能活在期盼 回到过去的世界
坚持到 最后一夜
曾经的一点一点
支离破碎的画面
是否和~我一样想念
想念那每一个细节
我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远
感觉不到 你还在身边 - this sentence is so true...
~World of my own~
23:38; unforgotten.Y
ROAR!!!
assignments are piling up like nobody's business... gonna be flatten by the mountain load of projects... sad life...
so it's time to jiayou and jiayou!!!
after chiong-ing the projs will be holidays!!!
looking frwd to holidays... but somehow am dreading it too... it seems that we're gonna split into different classes in year 2... and i am not LOOKING frwd to tt... who's gonna pon classes and go shopping with me when dun feel like going for lessons... who's gonna eat loads of tibits with me in classes... who's gonna crap, random-dess with me at anytime of the day... who's gonna drag projs and chiong with me when deadline's drawing closer... only my clique knows... i dont want to split!!!! i hate the thought of not being together... signs... on the bright side, i may get to know some of my other friends well... but, i love and treasure my clique so much that it is so unbearable... i dont want this clique to become like what M8 has become... everyone busy with their projs and stuffs and in the end, it is always so hard ro meet up as a group...
signs...
one must learn to let go for the past has become a memory dear to the heart...
memories are beautiful but lonely... it leaves one yearning for the unspoken words that leaves so much regrets behind...
=)
wells, have to get back to work...
~World of my own~
12:51; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
dear asked me to update...
so...
I'VE UPDATED...
oks...
that's lame...
anyways... a lot happened these days... firstly, i'm sorry... to hurt you... why am i always the one who's being protected ad resulted in you getting the blame and hurt... i'm really sorry...
my definition of success...
To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.
Let every man or woman here, if you never hear me again, remember this, that if you wish to be great at all, you must begin where you are and with what you are. He who would be great anywhere must first be great in his own Philadelphia. - Russel H. Conwell
signs....
a million things and whys going through my mind...
wells... i hope they'll disappear soon...
~World of my own~
21:54; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, January 07, 2007
mayb i think too much...
i'm sorry...
somehow, i feel that i'm right outside standing, yet you dun open the door to let me in... somehow i just dun feel needed emotionally and mentally... and i hate that feeling... feels so sucky... it doesnt feel right... how do i make you open up your heart... mayb you feel that you cant lean on me or whatever reasons... i dunno... all i know is i cant stand to see u down n troubled...but yet you wont say a word... i know there's probs at home, and i know i cant do much... all i can do is provide you a listening ear and shoulder... i'm feeling as useless as it is now... i hate myself when i cant do anything for you when you're down... just wan to cry because you're troubled and i can do nth abt it... i want to know what you are feeling, to understand you... and yet somehow i feel that there's a barrier blocking me from entering... i know i'm weak... crying over little things... but i cant help it... so freaking sucky... i cant help but worried when u dun answer my calls, reply me or unreachable... nvm if you dun answer or reply me... u might be busy or smth... what freaks me out is when you'reunreachable... mayb your phone's flat or smth... mayb i'm being too paranoid here...
a thousands of maybe-s...
i'm not someone who expresses verbally... i dunno how to do it...
i'm sorry...
really sorry...
~Worldof my own~
00:27; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, January 04, 2007
a new year has started... may everyone i know enjoy peace and harmony... =)
the school term has started and i know that it's gonna be tough on you... but just hang in there and before you now it, another year has gone just in a blink of an eye... i'll be there to catch your fall... remember my new year resolutions... i'll be there no matter what.. lean on me when you are tired... i dun wish to be the one who's always leaning on you for support... =)
jiayou for everything... although it may be a hard year for you, it will soon pass and whatever happens, look back and you'll find me there... i cant promise that i'll be around for always, but i give you my promise to be there always... always rmb that there's always a ray of light even in absolutely darkness... i hope to be the source of light for you...
blimey... blogging in class... i'm so down... feeling so tired these days... i feet that i will fall and drop onto the floor anytime... so tired... and i overslept today... that was how tired i am...
what's wrong with me...
this is the first time i ever felt this way... and i hate the feeling... being so weak... constantly tired...
i'm blogging to keep myself awake...
can even fall asleep when i'm chewing on sweets... how UNBELIEVABLE is that...
what on earth is wrong with me...
i do hope that i'll find the answer soon...
going to sleep...
~World of my own~
16:56; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
I'll be there or you, through good and bad times...
so now that you know about my new year resolutions... hope that you dun find the last two stupid...
really miss you...
know how worried I am when you dun reply me... but, nvm...
School's repoening tmr... jiayou k... hope that everything will go smoothly for u... anything just msg or call me... i'll be there for you, 24/7/365... dont forget me...
can you assure me that nothing will happen..? cause i cant help but having that bad feeling...
maybe you think that i think too much... nvm then...
cause i'll learn to stand on my own... independent...
freed of any support...
i dun need anybody...
~World of my own~
21:40; unforgotten.Y