Wednesday, November 29, 2006
he just dunno wat to say... how to take the initative... nor to take care of himself... and still ask me where am i going... i relpied with "to go home and rest early"... do you know how much you mean to me... my heart hurts when i see u hurting... falling... sick of the feeling... and worse, i am still missing you... yet u're still there drinking the cold fruit juice, laughing happily away... and then to top it off, you thought that there was no one looking... you did not see the shadow behind you... i have so much to tell you... i just to pass the message to you... the feeling is unbearable... it's like a virus has gotten to me... i'd rather be the one to protect you than the one who's being protected... to me, who's sick of everything...
wells... if you cat understand the above, then too bad... it might sounds nonsensical, but there's smth inside.. haha... happy guessing... =D
~World of my own~
23:15; unforgotten.Y
Memories - by PH
We both lost the magical feeling
The magical feeling called love
The eyes that was once so dear
Everything now becomes so clear
From lovers to strangers
Our hearts grew ocean apart
That day you told me
Let us break apart
My heart, torn into pieces
Yours, still intact
You left a hole there
The day you went away
I remembered the words
You once said
You will never leave me alone
alone in the cold
The promises you've made
Left me filling with euphoria
I never knew everything good
Must come to an end one day
The day you left me
Standing on my own
You told me to become stronger
As you will not be there
Not there to catch me
When i'm falling
Not there to wipe away the tears
With the gentleness of your hand
You left me so abruptly
That I couldn't think
You left me standing dazed
I could not even breath
You only left me with
All the memories we've shared
I sat upon the grassy ground reminisce
Taking a trip down the memory lane
~World of my own~
14:41; unforgotten.Y
wonder how is he today... who am i to him anyways...
forget it...
the stars are shinning brightly in the velvet sky... and i wondered if you are staring up into the same blanket of star filled sky right now... even though we livedin different locations, i feel that i'm living because of you... i dun wish to see you in agony and feeling unwell...
i know i'm not the type of gurl you want.. but i wont transform myself into the type of gurl which you like and want because that wont be me anymore... i will lose my sanity if i do that just because i want you... i wont an i dont want to do that... it'll only be an empty shell when it's all over... i wont be the same anymore... i just want to be myself... my true self... someone who i am really are, and not someone who u want me to be... i wont change because of anybody... because, i know... it's tiring...
~World of my own~
00:48; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
all of a sudden, my heart aches for him... however, i made a promise, and i shall stand by those words... no matter how hard, i will fulfil wat i've said... it doesnt matter... even though it does, i wont show it...
talked to jetson last night on msn, abt him and some stuffs... felt so much relieved now and the load is off my shoulders... a big thank you, jet... hahaz... n i'll continue to spam your tagboard... wheee... he's a nice guy... dun get angry with me for spamming n disturbing him... really glad to get to know you... haha... i promise i wont disturb you so often kays... haha... jiayou on your projects! =)
a free gurl... flying in the air on the wings of freedom... escaping from the reality of the cruel world into a world of surrealism where everything is so magical... i'll never believe in love at first sight... true, love may be a magical thing and it takes your breath away, but at the same time, love suffocates you till you have no room to breath... true love do exist, i believe... but do it stay long...? just like Fate, love comes and goes as it please, you can never ever catch it unless it wants to be caught by you... so contradicting, the irony of it... love causes heartbreaks but yet people yearn for it... people do not want to get hurt, they wanted to be loved... and yet they got hurt by love...
blimey... its getting complicated... love and stuffs... well, we all are complicated beings...
i'm stopping here... take care...
i'm not missing you
~World of my own~
10:48; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, November 26, 2006
nvr see him ytd nor today... disappointing larhs... but, anyways, there's a lot of things tt happened ytd...
right after AGM, i went off and go drinking with benjamin.... afterwhich go down to cpy find ppl... and went tonning with laopo... got to know 2 new fren, namely Aaron and Qi Feng... i'm not gonna mention events tt happened after tt... haha... too lazy to type...
laopo!!! really... i dont mind sharing you with benedict larhs... hmmm... Qi Feng oso not bad... you can consider him larhs... i dont mind sharing you wit Qi Feng either... haha... do let me know your decision oks...????
lazy to go ant further... shall stop here...
meanwhile, take care guys!!!
~ World of my own~
22:58; unforgotten.Y
Friday, November 24, 2006
i'm just bored.. bored = blogging during lesson = not doing any work = last minute tonning to do work = shag.... the logic of PH's... haha... oh wells... there's nth much these days... just sch, work and wasting time away... tt's my life... pretty pathetic... this is a place where i unleash all my feelings... so ya, dun bother reading in case it irritates u in some ways...
childish... tt's one word to describe me...? freaking pathetic...!!! i've been promoted... from fishball to sotong ball... tt's smth to celebrate huh... ya... let's go buy some hard liqour and get drunk... haha... i wont do tt.. tt's freaking childish...
and i miss him so... =D
~World of my own~
12:54; unforgotten.Y
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
i saw him today again... fire, the very song of my heart... and i miss him so...
~World of my own~
23:02; unforgotten.Y