Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Baby you can bet, they were burning with desire...
oks, i'm wide awake... nvr had such a good sleep for a long time... =P checked the blog... no dance tmr!!! SIANX!!! cant wait toget back to the studio doing all those warm ups... the feeling is good...
hope you've eaten and gotten ample of rest... looked so tired after clubbing and yet u still acc me... u're oso gonna become another panda alrdy larhs... hahahaha... oks, but panda's cute and i do so love eating the panda biscuits... =d LOLX...
speaking of biscuits... hmmm... feeling a bit hungry now... took 1 piece of cake for the whole day... nearly fainted just now when i got up from the bed when you called... gastritis + low blood sugar + low blood count (or watever that the doc says larhs) + feeling tired = the current feeling that i'm feeling now(of which i dunno wat that is and i think i'm stoning in front of the com)... no appetite to eat during the bbq, just feel like sleeping and sleeping... walking zombie... haha... so while they're bbq-ing, i'm stoning there...
rain and rain and more rain... freaking weather... so bloodly hell cold... where's the warm sunshine that i've been longing for... although december is supposedly a romantic month due to Christmas (of which one of my friend proclaim - might be romantic in other countries where there's snow but here we got loads of water and cold wind, which i dun find it romantic
at all), I JUST CANT WAIT FOR DECEMBER TO BE OVER AND DONE WITH!!! and that Spring and Summer faster come... den i can enjoy watching sunrise without having to worry about sudden rain... hahahaha...
one last note - i miss you =)
~World of my own~
00:11; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 25, 2006
so tired... just woke up... LOLX...
met dear last night and we went off to KTV, joining the rest of the G division... Called benjamin and wished him "Happy Birthday" instead of "Merry Christmas"... he stunned and blur... LOLx... den he was laughing like hell lor... -_-" oks... my fault... so sorry... hahaha... after K went to estee bar to club... my virgin clubbing night... hahaha... lolx... underage party not counted hor... clubbing's not really my cup of tea larhs... too noisy for me to like it... but nevertheless, i am going to learn to enjoy it cause benjamin and i made a pact... =X haha...
went for breakfast at mac den dun wan to head home so early... dear acc me even though dear's tired... sent me home at abt 8 plus... thanks dear... u really must rest well k...
reached home, showered and KO the minute my head hits the pillow... tired~ haha... becoming panda alrdy... hahaha...
going off to my precious cousin's bbq... Happy Birthday Natalene... love you... muacks...
~World of my own~
17:05; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Officially les, certified les... I've got wat it takes to become 1...
i know that u can do it... you guys will be back together 1 day...
and i'll learn to let go...
went to watch Death Note 2 with Benjamin ytd... at Cinne... went to meet his family before that... den some weird things happened la... too lazy to write...
baobei, sorry... not your fault tt i cry... just that, i dunno... i'll try not to cry so much k... u oso take care of yourself... dun always go out in the middle of the night... ltr something happened den how... wat do u expect me to do... and also dun keep bottling things up... not good... i've got shoulders and ears here... free of charge de... anything msg me k... =)
wells, i saw this tee-shirt the other day... the saying is cute... "if you like someone set them free... if they come back, set them on fire..." haha... dope rite... *thumbs up*
too lazy to blog le... haha...
~World of my own~
00:31; unforgotten.Y
Friday, December 22, 2006
Jameson,jiayou... dun get disheartened... rmb that there's always a rainbow after the rain... sometimes u might not see the rainbow because it's hiding out of your view, but nevertheless, the rainbow is still there...
always rmb, if u ever need a shoulder or listening ear or some1 to pinch, i'm here...
take cares
~World of my own~
00:10; unforgotten.Y
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
我知道在你心里你还是在想她,我在此请求你,别把我当成代替品。
只知道你在我心中的地位是如此的重要。只在乎你今天过得好不好、心情怎么样、担心你有没有好好的照顾自己。
只要你开心、没事,我怎么了都无所谓。
To Jameson (from NTI)
不要一直用微笑来隐瞒自己的泪水。如果你累了,请记得还有我这个朋友。
不是我要为了每一件小事而哭。我只不希望我身边最在乎的人受到伤害。我宁愿是我自己受伤,也不希望看见你出任何的事。
那天晚上,幸好你没打电话,因为我不想让你听到我哭。
我哭了。
记得那晚我妈妈打电话来,你说了一些话,因为妈妈到听了所以骂你、说些难听的话、说了你的是非,所以就这样,我当时很想哭,可是又怕你们问我发生了什么事。
我不敢当面告诉你,因为怕你会自责还是什么的,当时又很想哭,所以没对你所声:“我先走。”就和Larry一起离开。
我是真的那么弱吗?
那么容易流泪。
好讨厌自己那么轻易的哭。
为何不能坚强一点。
我这个样子,是不是很讨人厌?
~World of my own~
23:33; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Your kisses mightburn but my heart stays cool...
hols offically starts today... YEAs!!! two weeks only... haha... hmmm.... seeing miss ANITA after hols... wah... dun want lor... sian half... but wells, at least there're gonna be ppl crapping with me abt her... haha... that's the bright side... lolx... omg... we're onna turn our script into storyboards... damn...
irritating lor... how am i gonna draw all my human, clones and robots... oh watever... let's be bothered by it when the time comes...
oh, i wanna catch Charlotte's Web... my favourite book has been madeinto a movie!!! finally... now i'm hopping that Animal Farm by George Orwell will be made into a movie too~ *prays hysterically* XD
wanna catch tons of movies... hahahahaha....
till then, night peeps...
~World of my own~
00:31; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 11, 2006
My heart couldn't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with...not eating... I wanna get GASTRITIS... oks... i know i'm sounding stupid or watever... wanting to get gastritis... haha... but at least the pain stops me from thinking of other things... so, in a way it feels good...
i know i'm being weak here, using pain as a relieve... but i just wanna escape from the reality... oh, watever...
Sat met Benjamin outside DXO, drink and watch a match, Man U vs Man City... and wow!!! Man U won!!! *SCREAMS* 3-1... *JUMPS* wahahaha... =) so exciting...
oks... i've decided not to get gastritis... mayb bleeding sounds like a better choice...? haha...
~World of my own~
13:58; unforgotten.Y
Saturday, December 09, 2006
If love's already gone, it's not fair to lead me on
back to blogging... the songs below describe exactly how i am feeling now...
If your heart's not in it - Westlife
'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind (And there's nothing that I can do
To stop me losin' you)
I can't make you change your mind (If your heart's not in it)
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
你要的不是我
怎么能忘 时间多长
你快乐吗 想代替你回答
你知道吗 走了好远
我才能去面对
这份牵挂 沉默伤悲
你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落
怎么能忘 时间多长
你快乐吗 想代替你回答
你知道吗 走了好远
我才能去面对
这份牵挂 沉默伤悲
你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落
你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落
我被遗忘在 你遗忘的角落
I dun wanna feel a thing anymore...
can someone please stop all these...
if not at least make me emotionaless...
else turn my heart into a stone...
~World of my own~
00:41; unforgotten.Y
Friday, December 08, 2006
you had a hold on me right from the start, a grip so tight i couldnt tear it apart... my nerves all jumpin actin like a fool, your kisses might burn but my heart stays cool... - Fire by Babyface...
it's VID today...
no one was paying attention or doing work...
neither am i doing both... i know i'm gonna regret ltr on... for not doing my work in the class.. but knowing myself, i will regret not doing my work in the class... hahaha... watsoever... hmmm... gonna chiong all my work this weekend... haha... must jia you alrdy... den holiday will be a period of slacking away like nobody's businesses... hahahahaha...
recounting the events that happened today morning... it's really, OMG...
as usual, overslept on the bus... wells, wat else is new... i woke up to find myself at bukit panjang interchange... oh yes, bukit panjang interchange... *cheers!!! rounds of applause for PH please* watevers... with my bag, laptop, camera and tripod stand, the things are freaking heavy... made a decision... i went to flag a cab down and told the uncle DISTINCTLY NGEE ANN POLY and knowing me, i slept on the cab... i woke up when the uncle asked me which block I wanna alight and to my greatest shock, i'm at my destination - no? NANYANG POLY!!! OMG!!!! one is at clementi and the other at yio chu kang lors... and i told the uncle the full name of the school and not the abbreviation... what the hell... arghz... *screams* den i told him, "Uncle, i wanna go NGEE ANN POLY, not NANYANG POLY." den the uncle replied, " NGEE ANN POLY... orh... the one at clementi huh?" OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! *drumrolls... bangs head* oh watever~ i wanna pully my hair out!!! gosh...
i reached school, finally, but late... hahahahaha... must really kick the habit of sleeping in vehicles... the top of my new year resolution list... haha... try not to fall asleep...
i know i'm one big sleepy head...
too bad, cant change the fact that i am indeed one... hahahaha...
~Wprld of my own~
11:33; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, December 07, 2006
i'm trying hard not to feel... but you've melted me anyways... i'm falling for you...Happy Birthday to my dearest wife~ hope you've enjoyed yourself today...
Freaking tired today... had a couple of hours of sleep last night... We threw a party for my darling laopo in class... haha... i hoped that you really enjoy yourself... =)
realised one thing... gastritis acting up... i only just rmbed that i had a slice of cake which lasted throughout the day... oh wells... i've just forgotten to eat... yea...
all i can say is, today's a pretty special day... =)
~World of my own~
23:18; unforgotten.Y
watched 4 nations Netball match with PL today... it was fantastic... i cant wait for the finals this sat... must catch it... =)
nothing much happens today... oh wells... watever...
Jetson:
hope that you have seen the doc and please dont play bball for the time being... =)
nth better to do...
~World of my own~
00:15; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Don't make me fall unless you are there to catch metrue huh...?
ComT today was like, waste of my time... i sat there, watching trailers and bleach... nth better to do... and gosh, so tired today... didnt get enuff sleep last night... haha...
Met the usual people for lunch at canteen 1 - Laopo, Zhen Sheng, Cassidy, Benjamin and Castalos...
yes, you got that right...
CASTALOS...
lunch was as usual, a noisy and funny affair... the most amazing thing happened today...
Castalos *omg* actually spoke up for me because of a
tomato... can you
believe it...? i mean,
CASTALOS lei... wells, i think the sun rises from the west today...
back to the topic, after the most amazing thing happened, me and ZS went back to class to do SSS while theres went for IS... met Ore and Kenneth, chatted for a while before heading back to class... done a lil' work and after tt i went over to disturb Jetson... hope your right shoulder will be alright soon... sry... haha... nth better to do... wells, and i slept at the incubation room... tired marhs...
had fun today... aand i hope there's more to come...
till then, see ya peeps again...
~World of my own~
21:41; unforgotten.Y
Monday, December 04, 2006
如果时间能倒流,我会选择回到我们初遇的那一天,选择不喜欢上你。
把手中的线放开,任你随风飘,还给你属于你的自由。
你就去找属于你的幸福,而我,还是会好好过的。
我不会难过,因为能成劲遇见你,是属于我最美丽的回忆。
我也不后悔当初喜欢上你,因为逼近是你让我动了心,我选择喜欢上你。
现在我再次回到过去的生活里,就只有篮球,跳舞和音乐的陪伴,围绕着我的世界。
我们就到此为止。
回忆中的你,再见了。
~World of my own~
15:40; unforgotten.Y
Sunday, December 03, 2006
我不在乎你有没有看到我的存在,我只在乎今天的你过得好不好。
this phrase is so true huh...
人,是个复杂的动物。我们都只会追求得不到的东西,忽列了站再身旁的人。往往总是等到失去了,才懂得珍惜。到了那个时后,一切都已太迟了。后来才觉悟,后悔都已经来不及了。
人,只要是得不到的动西,就会把它当成幸福的标志,而所在身边以眼前的东西就变成了无所谓。
为何人,总是那么的自私,那么的自大,那么的不懂得珍惜眼前的每件东西,那么的难以满足?
为何人,就是不懂得心满意足?
~*~
我们,一定要因为想要保护自己,而去伤害身边的人吗?
~*~
为何我是那个总是被保护的人?而因为这样,保护我的人就因此受到伤害。
~*~
有好多好多的问题。总是回答不完的。
Love each other or perish - Tuesdays with Morrie
~World of my own~
23:03; unforgotten.Y
不知如何是好。 有好多话想说。 心里感觉很差。不知该从哪儿说起才好。我不说出口是怕你会哭,宁愿自己一个人痛苦,也不希望让你流泪。这么做只是为了不想让你看见我的难过,而因为我的难过让你哭泣。我只能在此对你说声“对不起。” 宁愿让你看见我的快乐,也不想让你看见我的难过。我只想让你知道你是我最在乎的一个很要好的朋友。因为如此,我不希望让你因为我而受到伤害。
你也知道,我想说的话,我就会说出口。不想对任何人说的话,我是什么都不会说,宁愿保持沉默。
我只想自己承担所有的一切,我相信我自己可以。所以就请你别担心。如果我想逃避,因为我撑不下,就请你让我随心所欲,原谅我的任性。
~World of my own~
15:17; unforgotten.Y
this post is dedicated to my dearest darling
knowing you the way i do, it's not because i find u irritating... i choose not to tell you anything or replying you because i know that u might cry if u know what happened... let me be if i dont reply you or answer your calls because i just want to be alone with all my problems... i would rather spend and share happy times with you than to let u be my listening ear... you need ppl to protect you and i just hope to be the one to do that...
if you really want to know, it's just that everything is happening at the same time, so fast that i felt suffocated, i just wanna run away...
~World of my own~
00:34; unforgotten.Y
i couldnt stop laughing today... mr giraffe, your laughter is contagious... cant stop laughing and -_-"' - ing...
went vivo, walk walk see see before we head over to Plaza for a show, A Battle of Wit, by andy lau... fell asleep larhs... find it like, too naggy... haha... people like me shldnt watch this show... =X
had fun today... managed to escape from everything today... all the credits should go to Giraffe... thanks for your company... if not i think i'll be stoning by the riverside... hope your shoulder is not aching anymore... sry...
i finally let go... and it's a good feeling... a big load off my shoulders... felt so relieved... like the saying goes, "na de qi, jiu gai fan de xia"... one should be able to, or rather, learn to let go...
jia you!
note to Giraffe - special thanks for today... i nvr con you horx... and jia you for your projects!!!
~World of my own~
00:06; unforgotten.Y
Friday, December 01, 2006
as i listened to one boy, one gal by Collin Raye, my favourite singer... a realisation dawned on me...
i'm the one who's waiting, be it for whatever reason... i dont wanna waste my time ever again... waiting for something close to impossible to happen... and the irony of it, i've always believe in the impossible - impossible was never in my dictionary... until now, i just found out that this word actually exists...
i dont wanna spend another 4 years waiting for someone again... once is enough... it dont have to happen twice... i'm tired of it... sick of it... i wanna stop for a rest... to breakdown for a while... just for a breather... and i'll be alrite again... back to the same old me...
i dont wish to go on waiting... it's such a stupid decision... knowing that this type of things can never happen, and yet i choose to wait alone... enough is enough... i've wasted too much tym...
i'm letting go...
memories that were once so dear
now bccomes a pool of tears
the fading scent of yours remains
lingerng in the depth of my dreams
memories which i held close
i have to let them go
they belong to me no more
they've found somebody elses
~World of my own~
17:05; unforgotten.Y
i'm not missing you...
i'm just lying to myself...
why am i missing u so badly...
i hate myself for being so weak...
i give up...
~World of my own~
11:37; unforgotten.Y